Why this new desire? Desire for babies...
This is the question that stares in front of me?
As I do my daily meditation, often I get glimpses or messages or visions of events , or realizations (my truths).
And so I keep watch for the story behind the desire for baby to show itself one day.
Nearly 3 years ago, The "me" that was in existence, wanted a lover an ideal mate and partner, a companion, to go around celebrating life with.
A close witness of my evolution as a human being..
I recall in all my communion with God or spirit or universe
that is all I would ask , crave and want.
All my prayers, my practice all were some how centered around that subject.
There was no other desires.
Then it all unfolded surprisingly even to me; my parents ; my friends.
I met him, we fell in love , got married.. moved to Spain , bought a house on a farm in the mountains.
A lovely romantic tale that linked all these events. It happened super fast. I had a deep knowing that it was all the grace of the higher spirits.
When that settled, and new days started to dawn....... then crept in the baby desire.
I cannot imagine ever desiring children , in my recent past.
Somehow in the here and now, there is the Wanting.
So alive and so real etched in my nervous system.
I see the whole world through this desire.
Question is Why? and so I keep searching for the answer through my practice.
What my ego really craves for is a affirmation of my practice. A kinda yep you are on the right track and keep going. For that to happen I have three scenarios , that my mind has created.
Something in me wants one of these events to unfold.
ONE: I feel that becoming a mother would be like moving totally into a new dimension.
I would evolve from being a child of my parents.. to becoming a parent to a child.
I want to understand my parents through the lens of being a parent myself, with that a whole new world would open up infront of me.
TWO: I become self realized. Cannot explain more on that. It is a deep curiosity that has seeped inside me from eons ago. I want to be in the same state that I have seen my masters and teachers in. I want to see the world from that lens.
THREE: my existence should just end. ( Well perhaps this one, is not clear but there is a contemplation behind it). It would be similar to entering another dimension.
and so.. everyday I find myself waiting for one of the three to reveal itself.
I know very well that I am limited by these three ideas.
TODAY I DISCOVERED ANOTHER SCENARIO
and so I open up my mind just a little more.
FOURTH: I transcend my craving for babies . The desire simply vanish as it crept in.
YOGA is truly an amazing practice!
Even if it just a momentary daily acknowledgement of the divine.
With daily practice you can keep the dramas at bay
and simply enjoy that which is unfolding.
Will keep posting on what actually Happens!
Namaste.
BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE IN THE WORLD
This is the question that stares in front of me?
As I do my daily meditation, often I get glimpses or messages or visions of events , or realizations (my truths).
And so I keep watch for the story behind the desire for baby to show itself one day.
Nearly 3 years ago, The "me" that was in existence, wanted a lover an ideal mate and partner, a companion, to go around celebrating life with.
A close witness of my evolution as a human being..
I recall in all my communion with God or spirit or universe
that is all I would ask , crave and want.
All my prayers, my practice all were some how centered around that subject.
There was no other desires.
Then it all unfolded surprisingly even to me; my parents ; my friends.
I met him, we fell in love , got married.. moved to Spain , bought a house on a farm in the mountains.
A lovely romantic tale that linked all these events. It happened super fast. I had a deep knowing that it was all the grace of the higher spirits.
When that settled, and new days started to dawn....... then crept in the baby desire.
I cannot imagine ever desiring children , in my recent past.
Somehow in the here and now, there is the Wanting.
So alive and so real etched in my nervous system.
I see the whole world through this desire.
Question is Why? and so I keep searching for the answer through my practice.
What my ego really craves for is a affirmation of my practice. A kinda yep you are on the right track and keep going. For that to happen I have three scenarios , that my mind has created.
Something in me wants one of these events to unfold.
ONE: I feel that becoming a mother would be like moving totally into a new dimension.
I would evolve from being a child of my parents.. to becoming a parent to a child.
I want to understand my parents through the lens of being a parent myself, with that a whole new world would open up infront of me.
TWO: I become self realized. Cannot explain more on that. It is a deep curiosity that has seeped inside me from eons ago. I want to be in the same state that I have seen my masters and teachers in. I want to see the world from that lens.
THREE: my existence should just end. ( Well perhaps this one, is not clear but there is a contemplation behind it). It would be similar to entering another dimension.
and so.. everyday I find myself waiting for one of the three to reveal itself.
I know very well that I am limited by these three ideas.
TODAY I DISCOVERED ANOTHER SCENARIO
and so I open up my mind just a little more.
FOURTH: I transcend my craving for babies . The desire simply vanish as it crept in.
YOGA is truly an amazing practice!
Even if it just a momentary daily acknowledgement of the divine.
With daily practice you can keep the dramas at bay
and simply enjoy that which is unfolding.
Will keep posting on what actually Happens!
Namaste.
BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE IN THE WORLD
